“I think a lot of people, including myself, are afraid, you know? We think the worst is going to happen. We think being honest is going to kill us. Because people are afraid of being attacked … even though it doesn’t make any sense. Like, I’ve been telling you the truth and you’re not attacking me, so that doesn’t make any sense.
I don’t know why I’m so afraid of telling the truth.
I remember one day I’d built this big computer and I was meant to save the money up for, like, school (I was meant to go to Sydney) and I said to my friend, “I don’t know if this is the right thing to do.”
And I was just really open and I just said to him how I felt; that I just didn’t like what I was doing.
I just basically had a mid-life crisis.
And then I went home and I basically told my mum what was going on with me; all the problems that I had. I basically just told her that I was really addicted to some bad stuff and she … she wasn’t angry or anything. And I thought she was gonna be but … I think being honest with her was probably what I’m most proud of.
Because I’d never been that open.
I was so afraid. But once I did it, it was good. It’s like all the things that you thought would go wrong don’t go wrong and it’s like a moment of freedom.
That changed my life, I think. I never used to talk to anyone about my feelings and I think at that point that kind-of changed. I wasn’t so afraid after that to talk to people about my problems. I still am, but I probably wouldn’t have gone to see therapists or whatever. And I think I was proud of myself for taking that step. Yeah. Just doing that.
And it was such a small thing. I didn’t do much stuff after that … but that to me was my proudest moment. Just being honest.”