Forty-Six: Part 3

“I feel like I’m the sort of person who just wants to do the best they can every day and make other’s lives better by being around. Like grandma … I’d be happy if I could be like that.”

Forty-Six: Part 2

“At the time it probably didn’t sink in so much but, in hindsight, completing my degree and securing a good job is probably one of my proudest achievements.”

Forty-Six: Part 1

“I just loved being back in my home town. I have a lot of family history here…It’s just a whole other world that you can still see some of the evidence of … and I just like imaging what that life would have been like."

Forty-Five

“The thing I’m proudest of in my life are my kids. Look, kids are weird thing to be proud of I think because it’s biological. Anybody can have kids. But, I’m proud of what they granted me, which was an opportunity to be the father figure that I never had.”

Forty-Four

“The thing I’m proudest of in my life has been getting off drugs… and having a really good relationship with my son and my sister. Definitely. I’m proud of coming out the other end. I’m a totally different person.”

Forty-Three

“And it made me realise what a father was supposed to be like … and for the first time I realised how much God loved me. I’d never been able to feel it before.”

“And people … they paint me with the same brush. They all think they’re artists. They paint all the homeless with the same brush instead of changing brushes. ‘Cause it’s different stories … so, you change the brush.”

Thirty-Nine

“But we hadn’t been in church for a long time. I was pretty mad at the church. I just felt like I didn’t belong. Just felt like I always … I don’t know. It was all just too hard I think.”

Thirty-Eight

“I think people just … they get judged early, you know? That’s what it’s like these days anyway. Once you get in trouble, it’s always hanging over your shoulders.”

Thirty-Seven

“What I really want is just for people to accept me as me. You know, we all get anxiety to some degree. I just get it a lot worse than others.”

Thirty-Six

“And I was really proud because it was at that point that I really showed the people that did doubt my choice to go to uni that I could do it. Because it was just, like, wow!”

Thirty-Five

“Without music I wouldn’t be here. Music is my life blood. It’s like a drug to me.

Music keeps me going … and it saved my life.”

Thirty-Two

“He thought mum was still alive at the start … and I had to tell him. It was pretty hard. Cause I already had to go through it when she died and, cause he forgot everything, I had to retell him again cause he kept asking about her.”

Thirty-Three

“I’ve been homeless since my dad passed away. He passed away two years ago. So, since then it’s been a bit of a roller coaster.”

Thirty-One

“It was the drinking that separated us. Very violent he was in drink.

Saying, ‘enough’, was very hard. But he was very negative and I just said to him one day, “I don’t want to be married to you anymore. Sorry.” “

Thirty

“I’ve just come out of serving six weeks at Silverwater Maximum Women’s Detention Center. I’m in a program: Miruma.”

Twenty-Eight

“It’s one thing to say it in your head but when you’re actually saying it to someone else out loud that’s when you need to make a change.

The ice life - I was done.”